I'M ZOVINA MARIA

Your Spiritual Inner Work Guide

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The Early Years

Ever since I was a young child, I have felt a deep internal connection to ~something~
I wasn't religious growing up, I was Agnostic. My motto was "we will never know anyway, so I'll just leave this topic wide open..."
However, I still found myself drifting off into my internal world everyday and into deep states of devotion to something beyond myself.
So much so, that I believed for many years that I wasn't from planet Earth, and one day, someone will come down and take me back "Home". To wherever and whatever was calling to me from deep inside.

Teenage Distractions

Growing up I was the artistic hippie girl. Willing to fall out with all of my friends in order to stop them from killing a bug.
However, as life started to become more complex, I started to spend less time contemplating and immersing myself in my inner world. School, exams, friendship and crushes became the most important aspects of my life. I was completely sucked into life's distractions...

Into the Void

Although I was no longer consciously or intentionally connecting to the ~thing~ I felt. I often dabbled in things such as meditation and yoga. One day, I was meditating. After about 10 minutes, I felt myself drift away, into complete silence. And then - I was gone.
I felt myself completely disappear.
It scared me so much I jolted myself out of that state and didn't meditate again for years out of fear. I wasn't ready to face, acknowledge, or explore whatever had just happened. After this, I went about my life. Still with this hum calling to me. But I was too focussed on getting into University, figuring out what I wanted to do with my life and falling in love.

Trauma & more Trauma

I had gone 20 years of my life with no severe trauma. Struggles and challenges, yes. But nothing that would keep me awake at night. To be honest, I couldn't relate to people's depression or anxiety that would prevent them from achieving things or making personal changes. That was until 2019 when a close family member became severely mentally unwell. It was 3 months of world stopping hell. Something out of a movie. Then 2020, a traumatic relationship I didn't have the strength to leave. Then 2021 experiencing the one thing I said I wish would NEVER happen. After 3 years of hell, I was broken. I now understood how people couldn't get out of bed. What feeling so much pain you wish everything would just disappear. And what it was like to not be able to look at yourself in the mirror from self loathing.

New Beginnings

One day, I was standing in my garden contemplating my life and everything that had happened up until this point. I still desperately wanted to leave my relationship, but could never follow through. Until this day. A voice from deep inside of me said "If you do not leave now, you will never be able to help anyone."
I don't know why, but this one sentence gave me all the strength I needed to finally end the relationship. This was the first time I heard my spirit talk to me as clear as day. This was the beginning of my Inner Work Journey. I felt so free and so happy once I left, all I could think was: What was it that kept me stuck? What was it that made me stay in something so bad? What was it about ME that made that be my reality? I no longer saw my life as happening to me, but of my own creation based on my own thoughts, beliefs and behaviours. I became fascinated and obsessed with healing. It was liberating beyond belief. I finally felt autonomous over my life. Watching habits melt away and evolve me into a completely new person. It unlocked a key to life for me.

The Awakening

It had been about 8 months of deeply healing my past wounds and traumas. One evening I opened up YouTube and there was a video on my for you page, it was by Aaron Abke. I can't remember the title, but something within me felt drawn to the video and wanted me to watch it, even though I had no idea what it was about.
After about 5 minutes I found myself paralysed, eyes wide open, heart racing, mind quiet. He was discussing the topic of The Law of One.
After the video ended I found myself in a state of panic. What did I just hear? My ego was freaking out. It was my very first true Ego Death. It was also the first time I witnessed my mind panic, but my self observing my mind and asking "Why are you panicking? Who is panicking? It's not me... but my mind."
I felt as if I had just stumbled upon information that my soul recognised and was the answer to questions I didn't even know I had, and to all the ones I did have. I ended up going to sleep straight after because of how overwhelming the Ego Death was.

The next morning, I woke up in a state of bliss. It felt like being alive for the very first time. Seeing clearly for the very first time. I proceeded to obsessively learn about Spiritual Awakenings and to discover what was meant by terms such as "I AM".

What is the Meaning?

During all of this, I had been hustling day and night to achieve my dream goal of becoming a Full Time Artist. Which I achieved in April 2023. I went from £800 per month to £10K per month. This was a magical moment for me. All of my hard work had paid off, and better than I could have ever imagined.
After a few months, when the high had settled, I noticed that everything I thought would change once I had money, didn't change. I was still fearful about money. I was still feeling lost and unsatisfied. Even the high of making money was fleeting and would last about 40 seconds after each art sale.

What now?

My entire sense of reality was crumbling. I had no idea what the meaning of anything was anymore. My mind was just continuously cracking open. And everything I thought I knew or wanted was unravelling.

I went though a period of emptiness, with no motivation to do anything, as nothing felt like it mattered anymore. Everything I thought I knew was backwards and inside out. I continued to obsessively delve into the nature of reality.

Mystical Experience

One day in late 2023, I went to the park to meditate and listen to music. I started thinking about The Law of One and how everything is connected. During a song, I felt the creative energy and individualised expression of God acting through the Artist, and linked it back to my own creative expression. For the first time I felt the interconnected string of all consciousness.

This then sent me into a 12 hour Mystical Experience. It felt like the veil of reality was pulled back for me to see and experience The Truth of Existence. It was pure Bliss. Pure Peace. Pure Understanding. There was nothing but Love. And everything was One. I lost all sense of who "Zovina" was. I simply existed.

Once this ended, about one week later, I entered the state again, but this time it lasted for an entire week.
I was still able to run my business and live life, but it was from a completely different state of consciousness. I felt more me and more alive than I had ever experienced before. Once I returned back to my normal state of consciousness, I felt suffocated and trapped. Like I had been put back into a blurry glass box that I could barely see out of. I couldn't believe that this blurry box was once all I knew, and once felt so clear and real. And now, I see just how limited I was compared to what was available for Human Consciousness.

The Path Unseen...

After everything I now knew and had experienced. Nothing mattered more to me than my Spiritual Journey and exploring the nature of reality and consciousness. I dropped everything and went to Thailand for a month to spend time with the monks and just be in the world, simply existing.
I started my YouTube channel and Divine Unlearning to share the things I had been learning, for anyone who was on a similar journey.

And this brings us to the present moment.

My path has completely disappeared.
I have no idea what God has planned for my life.
I live everyday listening to the guidance of my spirit, allowing life to live itself through me. I am amazed everyday how I didn't know how the day would go, and yet somehow it is always perfectly revealing to me, teaching me and guiding me on my journey.

I am still a student to life. Exploring and uncovering the wonders and magic of this ineffable existence.

I believe humanity is going through a great awakening that is leading us to the next stage of our species' evolution: Heart Based Consciousness.

We are awakening to the true nature of reality. Realising the mechanism at play and how we currently do everything backwards. Remembering WHO we really are.

The Gentle Path

I have tried it all. Harsh discipline, routines and schedules, systems and the latest hacks! After every self development video or book I read that prioritised effort and systems, I felt utterly drained. My spirit was rejecting this notion with every fibre of my being.

I felt deep inside that this again was backwards. That this was pulling me further away from inner stillness and Truth. That there has to be another way.

I could not accept that life was inherently hard, inherently a struggle and always a up hill battle.

That is when I stumbled across A Course in Miracles. I heard one sentence from these teachings and it instantly sent me into peace, bliss and alignment.

YES THIS IS IT, THIS IS WHAT MY SOUL RECOGNISES!

Out of all the modalities, styles and perspectives. I believe God has appointed me to be one who teaches the gentle ways. That of surrender. Doing less and receiving more. Listening to divine guidance and allowing the answers to reveal themselves to you, as oppose to hustling, figuring out and forcing.

When we, the human persona, finally get out of the way, we become One with All That Is. Realising that "I need do nothing" as God is already doing everything.

My Mission

I wish to be a helping hand to those who are on a Spiritual & Healing Journey.

This Journey is the most beautiful experience of my life. However it has also been the most confusing, heartbreaking, mind shattering experience I have ever been through. I don't know if I could have got this far without my mentors.

It has been placed on my heart to reach my hand out to anyone who is on the path, and wants a helping hand or a guiding light.

These are the things I have overcome and can help you with too:

Delving deep into inner work, evolving into a healed version of yourself you never thought would be possible.

How to create space between your thoughts (ego) and your Self (spirit) for a quiet mind and your free will.

How to hear guidance from your Spirit/God communicating with you each and every day.

How to cultivate self-respect & self-love that reflects in your relationships.

How to cultivate deep trust, surrender and faith in the unknown.

Learn the true meaning of Forgiveness and how it is the doorway to Heart-Based Consciousness.

How to navigate non-duality to transmute the "meaningless void" or "spiritual depression" stage.

How to stop letting fear prevent you from creating your dream life!

Are you ready to surrender to the easeful, effortless Truth of reality?

Unlearning the conditioning keeping you struggling and desperate?

It is time for you to live your most gentle and easeful life.

I am ready!